Monday, October 13, 2008
Monday. 9:22 am
I am not feeling my mojo. If I am honest with myself, I know that my lack of motivation this morning is stemming from my fear of failure. You see, I will be presenting a paper (exposing my ideas) at a conference at the end of the month. If I don't get over my fear of "having nothing important to say" and if I don't start writing the paper today, I really will have nothing to say the day of the conference (because the work will not have been done).
The best way to deal with fear, I have learned, is to work through it. If we are afraid of failure, and if we let that fear actually stop us from taking action, then we truly will fail. But, if we acknowledge that fear and get to work, then we have a greater chance of succeeding.
The phone rang and I took the call.
It's time to BRING IT with Total Body Plus.
Awesome workout. Is that a post-workout smile?
11:48. When the rubber hits the road
It's time to kick my fear to the curb, by taking action. I'm sitting down, about to start on this project. My goal? To get it started and write two pages. Once I'm done, I will be free for today to do as I please. How is that for incentive?
I'm working. I'm sure glad my hair is growing back, too.
Writing is a slow process, but it's going. The fear is gone. Dare I say it, I think I might actually be enjoying myself. It's taken me almost three hours to write the first paragraph. And yea, it's just a draft. I think I might have been overambitious when I set my goal of 2 pages. But, I will keep working until my brain gives out...I predict in about three hours.
I have been fried since I last posted at 3pm. I didn't get as much done as I would have liked, but I feel satisfied with the amount of effort I put in and with the work I produced. I have 15 days to get my paper where I want it to be. If I write at least 5 days a week, I will get there. And yes, I will get there.
Hallelujah, my work day is done! It's snack time!