Monday, June 23, 2008
One of my favorite things to do when I travel by air is to buy a good book or maybe a mindless fashion magazine. My most recent purchase? Jon Kabat-Zinn's Wherever You Go There You Are. Mindfulness Meditation in Everyday Life. The author's goal is to help people be more present in their own lives and not to be, as one of my coachees once said to me, "sleepwalkers" in their own lives. The book is also meant to assist readers develop a simple meditation practice that will help them remain calm when around them might be chaos.
Tonight, I find myself needing to put into practice the lessons contained therein. Earlier today, my doctor found a lump in my breast. It is probably nothing, she said calmly. While I didn't completely freak out, I also knew that it could also probably be something. Until I go for further testing, I won't know for sure. The waiting game begins.
Of course I'm scared, but I can't control the curve-balls that are thrown my way. I do, however, know that I have a say in how I react to the things that happen in my life. I can awfulize the situation, blame life for disturbing my present state of peace, & eat poorly or miss my workouts in retribution, or I can acknowledge what is happening (including my feelings), and continue to focus on my goals and on all those parts of my life that bring me joy. I choose to do the latter.
I confess, the last thing I felt like doing today was to eat every 2-3 hours. I just wasn't hungry and the thought of food was, in all honesty, displeasing. Yet, my commitment to take good care of myself no matter what happens in my life, made me bring it in the kitchen. I also really brought it this morning with Ten Minute Trainer's Cardio segment, Chest, Shoulders and Triceps, followed by Abripper-X.
Tomorrow, I hit day 30 with an even stronger sense that my (our) transformation extends beyond bringing it on the mat and in the kitchen to achieve a beach body.