Wednesday, June 11, 2008
"Mercury is in retrograde," my friend said, "Don't make any big decisions."
Well, I don't care, I've decided that I'm whiny today. I'm feeling like Jekyl and Hyde. As soon as I woke up this morning, I felt tighter. When I looked in the mirror, I saw that my abs suddenly looked firmer. I thought, "Yeah, Barbie!! Your bringing it in the kitchen is really paying off. You are looking gorrrrgeous."
Within minutes of waking up, however, I realized that my body was feeling tired. I really did leave it all on the mat yesterday, so much so that I wasn't sure how much I'd have to give for my Shoulders & Arms workout. During today's workout, I really made an effort to focus on what I was doing, even if I did have to bring down the intensity. The last fifteen minutes felt like torture. I even had to wait 15 minutes to recover before bringing it with Abripper-X. It wasn't fun, but I want a six pack. Not doing my ab work is not an option.
Today, I just showed up, but I showed up conscientiously.
When I passed the mirror again a little while later, after my mojo-less workout, my perception had changed. My legs seemed kind of chunky & shapeless and I found myself thinking, "Why am I not seeing results faster? When will I get to where I want to be?"
After my workout and shower, I couldn't find anything to wear despite a closet full of clothes that fit and that on a normal day I really like.
Oh, I get it. I'm having one of those days where my energy level is low (big surprise after yesterday's workout) and where everything feels like a nuisance, including myself.
It happens. We can't always be in the flow. Sometimes we get caught in the ebb. The key, I've learned, is to go with the flow, even when you're momentarily stuck in the ebb. When I have days like this, the first thing I do is to recognize and acknowledge that I'm off.
Instead of indulging in negative self-talk and cookies, I do my best to bring it in the kitchen and to hydrate. Despite my dissatisfaction with my clothes and my body today, I don't need to go out an buy a new wardrobe or bring it even harder. I need to rest. I need to take care of myself. And I now I need to get to work.
Day 17 down. 73 more to go!