Dear Boys and Girls,
It's been almost a week since I blogged. Yikes! I'm sorry! The last few days have been tough and since the photoshoot, I've just been trying to catch up with life!
The shoot came and went. I have to admit, it was tougher and slightly less fun than I had imagined. It was tough to flex my abs, quads, biceps, and smile all the while striking a pose! Aside from that, though, there were certain moments where I felt like I was inhabiting someone else's FIT body. I have never been this fit and it felt strange and good to see, yes, a six-pack! I am fitter than I ever imagined I could be.
I soooo wish I could share the pictures with you, but I have to let the judges see them first. Boys and girls, I have to build the suspense and anticipation! I will say this: I feel that all my hardwork has paid off. I am incredddddibly fit.
But, oh, life is never uncomplicated for anyone. I returned to school today after a break of a month and a half. My body has changed a lot since early December. I've only lost about 3 or 4 lbs, but I'm now super duper lean....and I just knewww that my colleagues would comment on how "thin" I was.
And of course, I'm not kidding, really, every single person I ran into this morning had something to say. One person even asked me if I had been sick, although, he noted, "You don't look sick. You look good. It's just so..."
What? strange to be FIT??
By 9 am, I wanted to hide in my office. After just 2 or 3 comments, I had to literally remind myself that confidence is key. I couldn't let their shocked, curious, concerned faces get to me. I know I'm fit, healthy, and happy. Who knew, being very fit can sometimes make you an outsider ...in certain circles. Tonight at a group fitness class, a woman I don't know came up to me and said, "I really like your body. Congratulations, I know you must work very hard."
I realized today just how important it is to have a strong sense of self. Part of me wanted to stuff my face at work so I could fit in. But, instead, I had my regularly programmed snack and later ate my sweet potato, chicken, and salad in my office with the door closed.
Today, I admit, was a challenge. I wish I could say that I'm immune to people's idiotic comments, but I'm not. Ahh, yes, Barbie, there is still room for growth. I think that might be a good thing. :)
Yup, we are always arriving.